This year that has been the longest 12 months of my life, nevertheless, I learned this year that you just have to be patient and not every thing you wished for will be spoon-fed but you actually have to work for it. Even happiness; you need to make your own actions to make yourself happy and other people won't do it for you.
And for these happiness, I thank these people for the overwhelming joy. I wouldn't be where I am if not of you. I'll see you again next year.
My family - I never realized how important that I have my family with me until those moments when I felt I have a ticking time bomb and in just a matter of seconds I'll explode into nothingness. It's in those first glimpse of light when I wake up to their morning sounds; dad getting ready for work, my brother's shoes squeaking on our floor as he walk past our room, sisters taking their turns to shower until the time it's my turn to use it for me to get myself ready for work and then I have to drop them to their schools first. Same goes at night but I never talked to anyone for so long I felt alone most of the time but their sounds-the eerie quietness of our home when they're just too busy in their rooms, the muffled laughter behind the closed doors, the sound of pans and the smell of food, the sound from our TV even though no one is watching - it saved me from my disillusion and made me hold on. If it wasn't of this home that I come to every night I wouldn't really know where I'd be now. 
Ruth Anne Cope-Avellano - Once chance to be happy and she followed her heart. There were questions, shadows of doubt, a quiet contradiction, maybe mainly from our dad because of what would future hold for his eldest daughter once she gets married. Whether she knew it or not, my sis and her then-fiance Romeo went through as planned. Then, there they stood in front of the altar, proving no glitch as small as choosing what song to sing on the event or as big as almost not being able to get the bridal gown on time. They have a lifetime to share of true happiness and in a way, I envy my sister for holding it together on those most crucial moments before her wedding and the serenity of her life now as a wife. And, yeah, I can't wait to meet my future godson/daughter because she recently discovered she's pregnant!
Romeo Avellano, Jr. - Who wants a tall, dark, and handsome prince when you can just settle for a God-centered gentleman who would stick with you, prove his worth, sweat it all out, and would turn his pocket inside out, not to give you the world, but to as if magically turn even the impossible thing around. I would never trust my sister's life to anyone else but to him who has been a brother to me since way back. A multi-tasking man but always puts God and his family first. He never gave up even in those nerve-wracking hours before the wedding and exhausted he may have been, he stood there before the altar, waited for my sister's hand from my dad's. Nothing would break this man. I honestly doubted him for a minute for my sister's sake but he's a man of his words. A good man at heart that's why blessings never stop coming his way. If I could just say this, bro, - yo da man!!!
♥ My sweetest downfall. The reason of all the reasons and the answers to all my questions. The very vein that keeps the flood flowing and my lifeline in those dying seconds of my life. The smile on my face, the vision that keeps me sane. You made me forget to hate, and who you are makes me forget all the hurt and forgave those I hate. How can I write love without mentioning your name? How can I describe these persistent throb of my heart against the cage of my chest when every time I look at you I'd be out of words to say? You are beautiful beyond imaginable and how you treat me sometimes makes me feel like I don't deserve you because you're perfect in every way I can think of. I cannot promise heaven on earth. I got mountain of faults that will eventually bruise or break your heart. I bet you got yourself some imperfections but I promise to love them as much as I love you. 
Leah Acap - Sometimes you cannot judge a person just by looking at them. You won't see the contents of their heart or the depth of their minds just by sharing a coffee with them on a given weekend of bonding. Even decades of friendship wouldn't actually give you a single hint of how tough or how vulnerable a friend can be. Most of the time, it is that one moment - one heartbreak or one tragedy could really define the person you spent most of your life hanging out with. She's always the force to reckon in our barkada and I always look up to her and when her only daughter Leila died because of dengue, Leah kept it together even though she's a wreck inside. Her laugh is contagious but every heave of laughter breaks her heart. I know and we all know Lei is strong than she actually knows. Her daughter Leila is now an angel and an angel to always keep her strong. I wouldn't know how she actually feels but I believe she's got what it takes to keep herself standing. One's strength can also be one's only source of weakness but Leah taught us that same weakness can be the source of your own stability all the same as it break you. 
Angelo Rulloda - a constant friend. Nothing you do would make you less a friend to him. He'd always be there for you no matter what. He can judge you by your mistakes or your flaws but you'll never be less of a friend to him. Once you became part of his life, nothing's gonna change that- even distance or lack of communication. He's my definition of a friend until the end. He's been the rock that kept me standing. Thank you for always being there for me. You saved me from myself.
Cherry Dancel - the best friend I thought I've lost a long time ago. I met her and befriended her in our sophomore year in high school but an unexpected rift that abruptly put a strain on our friendship and, for a while I felt like I'm on my last straw of chasing her to win her back because that kind of friendship cannot just go to waste. Well, I realized I never really lost her. We got reacquainted this year and everything that happened in the past was just part of the story that just harnessed our friendship, together or apart.
Jourjine Vivit - the childhood friend-bestfriend-sister-neighbor i got reacquainted this year through Facebook. We literally grew up together and those were the days when we head the 'gangsters' on the street we live in. We lost touch when hormones started to 'kick in' and the rest is history. But then again, we found friend once again and reminisced those days and I just loved talking to her, even just on exchange emails. I never realized how much I missed her friendship until I talked to her again.I have a long list of people that made impact on my life this year and I would mention them all here...
Rochelle Garcia - your strength never falter, with or without cancer.
Kembelar girls (Danel, Tinay, Cherry, Jacq, Rox, Loi, Leah, Utel) - my crazy friends who's been with me since high school. You guys are incredible.
Ching Acap - a sister I would love to have.
Kristel Satumbaga - my pare, with or without kape
Garcia Family - my home away from home
Thank you all for making a difference in my life this year.
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